So much is unchanged: Chris's toothbrush still in the toothbrush holder, his shaving cream still in the medicine cabinet, his wallet, watch and cell phone still on his dresser, his clothes all still hanging in the closet, his favorite coffee mug still sitting in the kitchen...and yet everything has changed.
I keep wanting to call him at work to tell him about funny things that have happened. I see things in the paper or in a magazine that he would have liked and I think I should save them for him. I think about how our summer would look if he were still here.
1/3 of a year without him already past. When will it ever feel normal? My guess is never...
This is us without you, Chris. We really miss you.
It's three years for me next month, and somewhere along the way, day-to-day life did start to feel normal. But even with that, I still regularly get frustrated because I can't tell my husband something or share an experience with him. There will always be things that only we two could understand.
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