Dear Chris (part 1)

Dear Chris-


Tomorrow, our little boy turns 3 years old.  A mere 3 years old and he already has experienced more monumental loss than most people.


Do you remember the day he transformed us into Mommy and Daddy?  Do you remember how the first thing the nurse said when she cleaned him up was, "He has a chin dimple!" and I said, "Just like his daddy?"  Do you remember how proud and excited you were when you found out we were having a boy?  Do you remember threatening to name him Horst?  Do you remember planning to teach him to read before he got to kindergarten?  Do you remember buying him Bears onesies and registering for a baby Cubs t-shirt (the only contribution you made to the process of registering)?


Do you remember waking up with him just to change his diaper before handing him off to me to feed him in those early weeks?  Do you remember marveling at his early smiles, his obvious physical strength and his undisputed brilliance?  Do you remember those three months you spent on family leave when I went back to work (I'm forever grateful that you had that time with him)?  Do you remember how your face lit up every time you came home and saw your little man excitedly waiting for you?


I remember and I will make sure that he knows.  He will never doubt how much you loved him, how long you waited for him to come into your life and how you so badly hated to leave him.  


We will always remember.


I love you forever-


Wendy