Presently, I'm feeling...
Ready to start thinking about and planning my future;
NOT ready to picture a future where I don't see Chris again..ever.
Ready to feel healthy and look better;
NOT ready to take the steps to get there...yet.
Ready to start going through Chris's things and decide what to save, donate, give away;
NOT ready for the emotional roller coaster ride that will come with this.
Ready to start thinking about what type of work I want to do going forward;
NOT ready (in the least) to actually start working.
The biggest change coming my way in the next couple of months is that my mom is moving in with me. We have talked about doing this for months and the time now seems right. A lot has to happen before this transition takes place not the least of which involves construction in my basement to create a living area. I believe this arrangement will be beneficial for both my mom and us in the long run. I think we are in for quite an adventure but I DO believe I'm ready for this one.
I promise to be better about updating! I will post some new pictures of the kids in the next week.
Hope you are all doing well.
Wendy,
ReplyDeleteSomething I am planning on doing when I am ready is to take Eric's t-shirts....he had a lot and from place we traveled.... and make a quilt. I happen to know someone who does this so it will be easy for me. I read about another widow doing this (my sainted dead husband) but you can find a kit in a catalog (website) uncommon goods. I though it was a great idea and it will be easier for me when I am ready......whenever that is. Good luck with everything, it is crazy how whenever I read another widows blog I can relate to exactly how they feel. It really sucks to be in this club....I wish you the best and look forward to more blogs....
Hugs to you ,
Hallie
Wendy,
ReplyDeleteSo sorry...I have been checking in to see how you are doing. My thoughts have been with you.