The ottoman I wanted was on the top shelf of the store, way above my head. So, I asked a man who worked there to take it down for me. As he was taking it down, I asked him if it was heavy (knowing that I was most likely going to bring it in the house by myself). He said, "Just leave it in your car until your husband gets home." And my first thought was, "That could be awhile." Really, that was my first thought. Not, "Oh no, he mentioned a husband and I don't have one and now I'm going to lose it." Not, "My husband is dead so I'll never get this ottoman (or anything else heavy) in the house by myself (ever again)." Not even, "How dare he assume everyone has a husband?" My first reaction was to almost, dare I say, crack a joke to myself.
Hmmmmm....is this progress? Is this healing? Or was it just a good day?
P.S. I DID get it in the house by myself.
I don't know about progress. I shocked people fairly regularly with my morbid sense of humor all the while my late husband was ill and even years later, I am still pretty much the same way. Perhaps that is a survival mechanism? Perhaps I am just a bad person? I notice the tendency in most survivors and not so much in those who don't though, so I think it's a good thing.
ReplyDeleteAuntie Wendy-
ReplyDeleteHey there! It's Jessie! My friend was recently diagnosed with leukemia(about two months ago) and I just got on her caringbridge website. I ventured over to Uncle Chris' page and couldn't help but smile. All of my memories of him are nothing but hyserical! I just found the blog and will continue to check often! I love you and hope to see you soon!
Lots of LOVE AND HUGS!!!!-share with Ian and Claire!
Jessie<3
It is big progress in my opinion! Humor, even if others don't always get it, is some of the best medicine.
ReplyDeleteKeep it up!