High Five

Feeling kind of proud of myself today.  This is my third week of Weight Watchers and I have lost my first 5 pounds!  Granted, I have a long way to go before reaching my ideal weight but that first 5 pounds feels awesome.

I think when most people ask me how I am, they are thinking about my emotional state not necessarily my physical state.  But when I think about what my poor body has been through in the last year, I'm amazed that it works as well as it does.  Here is what the old gal has endured in the last 12 months:

• Packed on 25 pounds while pregnant
  
• Gave birth via c-section
  
• Shed pregnancy 25 pounds almost immediately (planning your husband's funeral with a newborn and a 17 month old will do that for you)
  
• Nursed a baby
• Gained 20 pounds since Chris's death (chocolate peanut butter cups by the handful will do that for you)

And now I'm sending my body into another tailspin by trying to eat healthy (what a shock to the system!) and lose weight permanently.  Phew...I hope this is one change that will be warmly welcomed by the bod!